Hate: feels intense or passionate dislike for (someone); have a strong aversion to (something).
There are seven levels of hate:
- Momentary Hate
- Self Hate
- Healing Hate
- Painful Hate
- Resentful Hate
- Prejudicial Hate
- Full Blown Hate
I went through the different levels of hate as I continued on with the "Blue Monster Project of Death" also known as Jaden's baby blanket. The first was Momentary Hate. Making the blanket was so overwhelming that whenever I touch the project, work on the project, I am left angry, seething to the point that I'm not even thinking rationally, that the project becomes a projectile weapon aimed towards the wall of my living room. I have been at this stage for quite some time now. But things have changed. I am now at the second level, Self Hate. I hate myself for embarking on this project and the fact that I'm not really into this knitting scene. Knitting a project takes too long whereas when I sew a skirt, it takes me but a half day to do and it's not hard on my wrists.
There is a reason why I am at this second level. Michael asked me to knit him a Scuba Blanket. This project is a bit hard to create for a novice like myself. Come on. I had just learned how to knit a couple of months ago and he wants me to create something like this.
I can't necessarily turn him down, so I said yes. I hate myself for saying yes and he'd better appreciate the end product. If not..... sigh ......